First off I just want to say good job to all those who presented their songs/stories last Thursday. Also good luck to all those who are presenting tomorrow. I just want to say sorry for crying while I tried to present mine. I got up there and its like my brain and voice just stopped working. I'm not a good public speaker. I'm angry with myself because I had everything all planned out, the way I wanted to say things but my emotiions took over. So I'm going to try again and tell you about my theme song because I know I didn't make one lick of sense while I was up there.
I grew up in a Pentecostal home. For those of you who don't know what that is its basically the same as Christianity but its more strict. I had to wear full length skirts everyday of my life. I was not allowed to get any piercings, tattoos. I was not allowed to wear any jewelery, make-up, or even nail polish. I wasn't even allowed to cut my hair (after 18 years it was down to my knees and I sat on it everyday). Everywhere I went, I could hear people talking behind my back about how weird my family and I was. I hated my life and had suicidal thoughts almost everyday.
After I turned 18, I moved out and in with my boyfriend and his family. They welcomed me with open arms and they mean the world to me now. I still see my parents and they have finally accepted that I need to live my own life.
Yeah, religious dogmas to that extreme are ridiculous, that's why I'm an atheist. I can also understand wanting your own life, I too am at that point in my life. But hey, you're doing your own thing, and that's respectable.
ReplyDeleteFirst off I wouldn't apologize for crying. That has to be a very touchy subject. I couldnt imagine living like that, and its not because I dont know a lot about it, because I do. No, I dont know as much as you do but one of my best friends decided one day she wanted to switch to a Pentecostal church instead of staying at the Methodist chruch that she had attended for years. It hit me hard but I stuck by her because it's her life and it's what makes her happy. She was in it for two years and thru those two years people did critisize her daily and some wouldnt talk to her. It bothered me because the people that got her involved in the church would be so nice to me then talk bad about me when I wasnt around because I wasn't Pentecostal. I dont go to church but I read the Bible and I believe in God to the fullest extent, and I know Im not perfect but Im sure you can verify that they are all not perfect either. I applaud you for talking about that. You handled yourself quite well infront of everyone and your paper was amazing. Hold your head up high honey!
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